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Tuesday, November 27, 2012

Always Something

So last week I brought up how I was waiting for some blood test results my doctor ordered. I'm usually cautiously optimistic when it comes to test results. Considering my recent track record with my back issues, I went in hoping it wouldn't be something serious. Time for a little "good news/you might want to followup on this news."

  • Liver - Good
  • Kidneys - Good
  • Iron levels - Good
  • Blood Sugar - Normal
  • Cholesterol levels - Envy level good (unexpected but thrilling nonetheless)
  • Vitamin D levels - Low....medication prescribed for that (one pill once a week for 3 months)
  • Calcium - Kinda low and need to start taking supplements
After all that my optimism levels skyrocketed. I can deal with taking one pill a week and some daily supplements. No biggie! Then I opened my big fat mouth and told her about my sleeping problems. You see I have an anxiety disorder that set in after my mom died. For years I thought I could deal with it on my own and without medication. I was wrong.

It's gotten to the point where I get somewhere between 2-5 hrs of sleep a night. As soon as my head hits the pillow my mind starts racing. I swear it's like there's a NASCAR race in my head. Hard as I try to tune it all out I just can't get my brain to shut up long enough for me to fall asleep. So I lay there and wait it out until I black out from exhaustion. Of course something usually wakes me up mid-sleep (thank you small bladder) and I have to start the process all over again. Extremely frustrating and exhausting.

I also brought up how it's hard for me to focus when I'm awake too. I'll start working on one thing and within a few minutes I've got 5 browser tabs open and I'm bouncing between things. Which sucks big time when I've got a project to do. Even worse when it's an assignment I don't want to do because it's like my brain is helping me procrastinate. So my doctor suggested I do some in depth talking with my new psychiatrist because she thinks I have Adult ADD.

Say what now?? Yup apparently that could be a reason why my brain feels like it's on random shuffle all the time. Also why I can't sleep. So she gave me something to help me sleep. Next week I have to figure out what my long term goals for therapy are, and you better believe this ADD issue will be HIGH on the list. It's the chicken & the egg approach. Did my anxiety issue cause the ADD or was the anxiety caused by the ADD was never diagnosed. Hmmm.....I'll keep you posted.


  1. it's not fun to be like that at all! i have add and anxiety as well which definitely interfere with my life. i hope you get taken care of and start sleepin better, soon!

    1. Last night was the first time I've been able to sleep uninterrupted. I forgot how good that felt! It took a little while, but I could tell it was working when I just drifted off instead of blacking out like I usually do. The ADD would make sense. I think the anxiety disorder might've caused it because I didn't have these problems before unless it's one of those things I've blocked out like a few other things.


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